Chapter: 5

LAW OF AVERAGES
July 2nd 2003

It’s been more than 2 months since I first met Anie. But it feels as if I know her from a long time. She has qualities which you hardly find in modern human beings – heart made up of Gold, innocence of a baby, extremely truthful to herself, her parents, her friends and yes, extremely emotional and sensitive. She is also pretty mature considering she is just 16. I mean if you tell her any problem, she will listen with complete patience, understand the issue and respond to it with such maturity and perfection that you will feel like you are getting an advice from someone twice your age J . She loves being with kids and despite her being so mature sometimes she can pretty well behave just like them. One more thing you really got to see her when she is laughing. I mean you can’t and I can bet my life on it you just can’t stop her if she starts laughing. She can go on and on and on. And when you join her, you forget all the worries, you even forget where you are, it lifts yourself so high and you are in a state of eternal bliss. You can really feel your soul becoming happier and reaching a state of extreme calmness and tranquility.

Anie also shared with me her problems, her worries. She found it hard to adjust with her schoolmates with whom she had a few bad experiences. I told her to be strong, taught her how to hit back if they hit you. I told her not to be feeble and weak. I knew she needed emotional support and someone who could listen to her when she was in need. And I can never thank God enough for giving me this opportunity to help her. I just wanted her to be happy. I used to question God sometimes that why do you give pain and troubles to good spirits? But I always knew God is always testing you with these sorts of problems. Everything, good or bad that happens in life happens for a reason. If God is testing you, he will make sure that he will send his angels, which will be always there to show you the right path. You just need to have faith and believe in yourself, your family and in God and all the problems and worries will go away. “Worries end where faith begins.”

I promised God that since he has given me this opportunity to help Anie, I won’t disappoint him. I will always be there for her no matter what the circumstances are.


As I told earlier, everything in life happens for a reason. And sometimes things are meant to happen in a particular order and no matter what you do, no matter how hard you try to change the course of things, you will never ever succeed. If it is written in your destiny then there is nothing you can do to change that.

On July 2nd I got a call from Anie, she usually called me after 11 but that day she called around 9. Before picking the phone only, I knew something wrong has happened. I went out of the house and took the call. I was right, she was crying on the phone. I tried to console her and tried to ask what happened. After sometime she told me the reason – Apparently her parents had told her to stop talking to me. It’s not like that her parents didn’t know about me before, she did tell them about me. Guess they didn’t like it from the starting itself that she was talking to an anonymous person met through internet but now seeing that she became quite a good friend of mine, they advised her to break all ties. I knew that she came from a conservative family and her parents like all other parents would like to protect their child from wrong people. But why me? That was my first question to myself.

Me: Anie you know me right, quite well, I mean I understand they are worried and concerned about you. But I am not a bad person, you know me right. I don’t understand, I can talk to them if you want, to remove any misconceptions.

She told me it’s not possible to change their minds now. And she can’t go against their wishes. She told me if that she respects her parents a lot and would never do anything against her wishes.

I can’t forget that day, for few seconds I didn’t know what to say; I didn’t know what went wrong. Why it has be this way God? I never have done any bad thing to anyone then why this punishment? She was my strength, my mentor, my guide; I can never in my 1000 lives think anything bad about her. And now I stand before her labeled as a person who can harm her. I wasn’t sad that I could never talk to her again but why it has to end on a sour note, I felt like crying. I wanted to scream aloud that I am not a bad person. I have been handed over a punishment for a crime that I never even committed.

But after thinking over it for sometime I accepted it as my fate. I knew this wasn’t the way it was supposed to be but I tried to put myself in Anie’s parent’s shoes and could see their concern. She knows I am a good guy, I know I am not bad, but for her parents I remain an anonymous guy. They haven’t seen me or talked to me. They obviously have to be concerned about their daughter. I tried to act normal, it was tough to control the tears, but I knew if I would break down she wouldn’t be able to take it. I had to be strong so that she could abide by her parent’s decision without any guilt or hesitation.

I bid her Goodbye with a promise that although we may never talk again but I will always remember her and she can find me close to her heart always, as a true friend.

That Night I couldn’t sleep, I tried fighting with God, asking him why it had to be this way but as I said before there are moments in life when things are not under your control. Along with Joy there comes pain. It’s a vicious circle that you cannot escape. That’s why life is like “The law of Averages” , you can just keep hoping that things go your way but if they don’t; don’t be dejected, don’t lose the hope because “Hope my friend is a good thing, maybe the best thing and no good thing ever dies”